We all have our ghosts....

Yeah. Incase you haven't figured it out by my lack of entries...well, I'm not really using this blog anymore but just keeping it for record purposes. Want to see what I'm up to, check out my MySpace. My SN is VolcanoVixen21...I think it's like www.myspace.com/volcanovixen21 or something like that...check it out.
Its been real.

J

w00t for 4.0s!!!


J

"Time passes by, but persistant demons still
clutch on to me"

You have been wronged in the past and have to live
with those awful memories now. That is why you
carry inside much hate and sadness, which you
hide away to most people. To this day you still
feel pain thinking of it, and desire revenge
done to them/him/her, to right the wrongs that
has been made to you. You usually are alone or
with a few friends, but you aren't too keen on
the human race anylonger. You might find
temporary happiness in some sort of activity,
such as music, to get out your feelings, even
if it is just listening to it. Most people
might think you are overreacting to still feel
such contempt, and that doesn't exactly help to
be around those who can't understand. You might
feel insecure nowadays, and you have little
faith in most things.


What is Your Phrase? [for darker people]
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Your wise quote is: "Fashion is a
form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to
alter it every six months" by Oscar
Wilde.You are a very sarcastic person with a
sharp tongue. You may not be the one always
talking, but your mind is nevertheless
critizing. You tend to have a cynical view on
life itself and be somewhat withdrawn with who
you really are. Society now is in your eyes
corrupted and you wonder how the world will
survive. And people are in your mind very
ignorant and blind to the reality.


What wise quote fits you? [pics]
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The Sensual Vampire


What type of vampire are you?
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Your personality is best represented by the
traditional Japanese Katana. You are brave
beyond words and rarely (if ever) act for your
own personal gain. Your honor is very
important to you, and you strive to better
yourself and help others. You try not to let
emotions get in the way of making a sound
decision, and are usually quite successful.


What sort of Weapon best Represents your Personality? (anime pics!)
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your wings are pitch black and look worn off, like
life hasn't been so nice to you. they reflect
the sadness in your heart and your dark side
that sometimes tends to take over. but when
someone gets through to you an amazing
friendship might grow from it, you never know
what the outside world has to give for you.
don't lose yourself.....


What type of heartwings do you have?
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Your a thong.....it wouldnt hurt to cut back on how
many dates you have a day people say things and
you will prolly get a STD


Whats your Underwear Type?
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Rose is your inner name because you are elegant and
passionate. You are also beautiful and you are
very independant.


What should your name really be??? (for girls)
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The Goddess of Fire and Happiness. You are a ball
of energy. Always compassionate and full of
life, you can make anyone feel happy and you
are exceptionally uplifting. You are an
individual beauty.


Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
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Okay shocker.

Hey, you're thirty-something or over. It's not a
bad thing at all ! You take care of what needs
to be done first, and then play after it's
done. You like to have everything under control
and know what's going on around you. You're
most like the leader of any group- you've got
brains, common sense, and you know how to pull
it together.


How old are you at heart?
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Okay that was boring.

1. What is your current ringtone:
"Sweet Home Alabama", "Layla". (Chances are, you wont know the second one...but your parents will.)

2. What is your current wallpaper?:
Hawaiian Sunset

3. Do you own a picture phone?
YES and i LOVE it

4. If so, what was the last picture you took?
Tangent Drive!!! (Inside joke with Linz and Jess - BTW Jess I want my Tangent pic back from UO trip!!!)

5. Go to your text message inbox and type what the 10th one down says.
YOU ARE A SEXY BITCH! - Lindsay

6. How many contacts do you have on your phone?
somewhere between 100 and 150.

7. Go to your missed calls. 5th missed call...who is it?
Jay

8. Who was the last person you spoke to on your cell phone?
David

9. What service do you have?
UniCel

10. At this very moment, how many bars do you have for your service?
a full 5

11. Who's on your speed dial number 5?
#5 would be Jessica Home.

12. Do you have voicemail?
of course

13. How many contacts that start with the letter D do you have:
5

14. Who do you call the most???
Lindsay, Jessica, David

15. How many text messages do you get a month?
Do I get?....um...somewhere between 50 and 75, I don't know, i don't count. I have as many as I want.

16. Can you send pictures?
Yes

17. What are the last 4 digits to your number?
2779

18. Go to your sent texts, what does the eighth one say?
"Actually I did :)"


19. What about the 15th?
I only have through 13, which is "What time do we leave in the morning?"

20. Who's the last person that you called?
David

22. Last person that texted you?
Lindsay

23. Last person you added to your contacts?
Michael

24. How many minutes are on your plan?
No idea. All I know is I call who I want when I want and it's all good.

25. Do you like your phone?
I adore my phone! Im thinkin' of naming it. Maybe Celly.

26. Wanna give out your number?
sorry. Those who have it, have it. Those who don't, don't need to.

estion 1:
If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids already, three who
were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally retarded, and she had syphilis,
would you recommend that she have an abortion?
Read the next question before looking at the response for this one.

Question 2:
It is time to elect a new world leader, and only your vote counts. Here are
the facts about the three candidates.

Candidate A.


Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologist. He's
had two mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.



Candidate B.

He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college
and drinks a quart of whiskey every evening.






Candidate C
He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an
occasional beer and never cheated on his wife. Which of these candidates
would be your choice? Decide first... no peeking, then scroll down for the
response.



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Candidate A is Franklin D. Roosevelt.
Candidate B is Winston Churchill.
Candidate C is Adolph Hitler.

And, by the way, on your answer to the abortion question: If you said YES,
you just killed Beethoven.

Pretty interesting isn't it? Makes a person think before judging someone.
Wait till you see the end of this note! Keep reading...

Never be afraid to try something new.
Remember: Amateurs...built the ark.
Professionals...built the Titanic



And Finally, can you imagine working for a company that has a little more
than 500 employees and has the following statistics:
* 29 have been accused of spousal abuse
* 7 have been arrested for fraud
* 19 have been accused of writing bad checks
* 117 have directly or indirectly bankrupted at least 2 businesses
* 3 have done time for assault
* 71 cannot get a credit card due to bad credit
* 14 have been arrested on drug-related charges
* 8 have been arrested for shoplifting

* 21 are currently defendants in lawsuits
* 84 have been arrested for drunk driving in the last year...
Can you guess which organization this is?


Give up yet?
It's the 535 members of the United States Congress. The same group
that crank out hundreds of new laws each year designed to keep the rest of
us in line.


You gotta pass this on...

Finished up finals for Summer Term today.
I now have 5 weeks of nothingness until Fall Term.
What am I to do?
Look for a part time job, write and submit more of my poetry to magazines.

If all goes accordingly, I will have a nice, juicy 4.0 this term which will make sweet, sweet love to my cumulative. Go college.

Finished editing my 5 top poems tonight; I. Feel. Like. A. Genius.

Time for bed. Reality check at AFrame tomorrow/Saturday. Don't hit the cell, it will be OFF.

J

Back home.
Well, I must say that that was one of the best weekends I've had in Portland since I left. Friday, spent in watching movies, visiting people and SHOPPING so much. Saturday was spent on a road trip with Lindsay (some nice best friend time that we've needed for a while) down to Albany to watch our guy friends' punk band, then to Eugene to shop. That night we went to Wilsons and then I went out to dinner with mother. Sat. night was my thing downtown at midnight with some of the girls I graduated with. I was supposed to go boating with Lindsay and Jess Sunday but ended up sleeping until 3:30, when I woke up, went to dinner with grandma, then over to Wilsons again with Lindsay...they invited Lindsay and I to go to Disneyworld with them! I am so psyched...and then Lindsay and I went to Carin's bonfire at her HUGE house on the Willamette. It was, like, Carin, Linz, Jess and myself...and somewhere around 12 college guys. Excellent ratio....Lindsay went home cuz she had to work in the morning, but I ended up doing shots with Jess and then crashing on Carin's couch with her (what the hell, i party less than half as much as they do and i've got finals this week...I am entitled). Got up this morning, went to mom's loft to pack and sleep it off a bit, then went home, where I am now.
BUT omg...I did SO much shopping...Bend has nowhere near the amount of stores Portland does, so when I go there I drop a load...my two favorite purchases were 1. a pair of cowboy boots and 2. a pair of white leather stiletto knee-high boots. I adore them.
Since I actually had fun in the city this time, I am planning to come back once more before fall term (maybe more than once, I don't know, but for sure one long week) where I can see my friends before they go back to college, drag Linz and Jess to the State Fair and babysit my Aaron and my Noah!
Well, I've got finals this week, so I'm going to go lie down and read and chill before I start typing...because once I start, I don't stop. :P

J

I am now a twenty-five year old year old stuck in a nineteen year old body.
Well, sooner or later it has to catch up, right?


WHY IN THE HELL, WHEN ITS 9 A.M. AND OUR WHOLE PARKING LOT IS VIRTUALLY CLEAR, DOES HE HAVE TO PARK RIGHT NEXT TO ME!?!!?
Jackass.


Great meeting with editor today. She gave me a ton of ideas and I shared a few of mine with her. We discussed my fear of libels, she told me to simply get a disclaimer. But I will never forget the way she looked at me when I told her the truth about Ben. The first time she's given her own opinion about any fact of my personal life; she wants to kill him. I even told her a couple things about Ben and me that I haven't told anyone else; not only because she and I have a discretionary agreement and I can legally slaughter her if she releases any information, but also because I trust her. And she put her hand on my shoulder and told me that she thinks I am very brave for what I am trying to do.
I hope so.

But in the meantime, I'm looking into that disclaimer.

Time to watch Constantine again.
J

Teaching Math In American Schools In 1946:

A logger sells a truckload of lumber for $100. His cost of production is 4/5 of the price. What is his profit?


Teaching Math In American Schools In 1957:

A logger sells a truckload of lumber for $100. His cost of production is 4/5 of the price, or $80. What is his profit?


Teaching Math In American Schools In 1968:

A logger sells a truckload of lumber for $100. His cost of production is $80. Did he make a profit?


Teaching Math In American Schools In 1979:

A logger sells a truckload of lumber for $100. His cost of production is $80 and his profit is $20. Your assignment: Underline the number 20.


Teaching Math In American Schools In 1990:

By cutting down beautiful forest trees, the logger selfishly makes $20. What do you think of people who destroy nature just to make a living? Topic for class participation after answering the question: How did the forest birds and squirrels feel as the logger cut down the trees? (There are no wrong answers.)


Teaching Math In American Schools In 2005:

El hachero vende un camion carga por $100. La cuesta de production es ...

Preliminary Photos of Makaio (at least the only ones I'm going to release)

Alkali Desert, OR

View from ridge above Makaio

This doesn't even do it justice....

....it is so beautiful.


And everyone partyin' at the lake in July!


(Lindsay playing Chubby Bunny)
Lindsay won!